“This isn’t just about sports. This is about the good of humanity. I mean, we’re getting into some next-level shit here.”
— Dr. Andy Walshe, Director of Human Performance, Red Bull
This Stuff is
all that “next-level shit,” which includes all things “mental engineering,” as found in the Head in the Game book published in early 2017, and beyond. This includes but is not limited to
- magic technology that puts your brain in the palm of your hand
- virtual reality goggles
- full-immersion virtual reality CAVEs
- neuroscientifically-engineered video games
- neuro-electric stimulation
- epic quests through, for instance, the Patagonia and the Outback
- sensory deprivation chambers
- psychedelic drugs
- much more
I stumbled across all of it over a few years, after I tried to be a pro baseball player, failed because my brain kind of broke, and then went in a desperate search for answers when my wife needed me to get better, and then we found out we were having our first son. That story took me all over the country, where I experienced almost all of the above and more.
That story is told in large part here.
[ Related: “The Baseball Player and His Broken Brain” ]
The Ride is
the journey This Stuff takes people on. Both in their own minds. In history. In the world at large. In the future.
The Ride is this blog, and the Head in the Game podcast, and the reality that we all go a little crazy sometimes and need some help with it. And it’s not weak to get help with your mind — in fact, the opposite is true.
The Ride is me, a one-man army trying my best to get the world comfortable with talking about This Stuff.
The Ride is explained in full, perhaps, by the following exclusive peek at Head in the Game.
Wherever you are on The Ride, welcome!
THE CONSPIRACY AND THE RIDE
Wearing a long, loose white T-shirt, black skinny jeans, and flip-flops, Andy Walshe, Ph.D., an enthusiastic, balding, white-haired Australian with energy for days, strolls into the Red Bull North America headquarters lobby.
I’m relieved. It’s February 2016, and I was nervous that Walshe, Red Bull’s director of high performance, would cancel. Not that I think Walshe is flaky—it’s just that I’m here to talk with him about some things that I’ve tried to talk with hundreds of athletes and trainers about over the past year, and virtually none of them wanted to.
These things sound unbelievable and have— supposedly—been helping athletes do the unthinkable, such as looking at their minds and brains and making them, in essence, more athletic. Athletes are using various machines, equipment, and software to do everything from testing their brainpower to inserting themselves into virtual worlds wherein they can train with all the mental stress and fear and challenges that they would face in the arena. Some of these things can literally look at their brains in action and sync them with their smartphones.
The brain, in the palm of the hand.
These devices aren’t only being used by fringe athletes looking for a gimmicky way to get ahead either: household names, from dozens of sports around the world, are using them. Tom Brady. LeBron James. Steph Curry. Kerri Walsh Jennings, the legendary Olympic beach volleyball player who calls these innovations “life-changing.” Jason Day, who has had them change his life, becoming the number one golfer in the world in 2015 after using one. I could keep going, with examples of both men and women, in dozens of sports—football, hockey, baseball, soccer, golf, tennis, surfing, skateboarding, UFC, myriad Olympic events.
My problem, however, is that none of them have wanted to talk to me about . . . well, there are so many tools for this sort of training that they have no single clean label, so I’ve gone with the extremely scientific term This Stuff. Ever since I first stumbled across some of This Stuff a few years ago, I’ve been calling athletes, coaches, trainers, and so on who use it. At first, they seemed excited—and then, I don’t know if they had an agent or a coach or someone else talk them out of it—but suddenly they changed their minds. Many people, “after consideration,” canceled interviews. That was on top of hundreds of others who either told me no or flat-out ignored me. Stonewalled all around.
“It’s a conspiracy, mate!” Walshe joked over the phone a month and a half ago.
If I was smart, I probably would have moved on, but I couldn’t.
For one thing, I felt like I’d stumbled into some sort of sci-fi alternate universe. For another, I wasn’t just finding cool stuff that could help athletes, but stuff that could help everyone. The more I learned, the more I needed to know, because as dramatic as it feels to say this, This Stuff started to seem like it might even be important for people beyond sports, too.
That, more than anything, is why Walshe agreed to meet: This Stuff is helping athletes win championships and medals, sure, but it’s also having a stunning effect on their lives. He says, “This isn’t just about sports. This is about the good of humanity. I mean, we’re getting into some next-level shit here.”
As Walshe guides me through the Red Bull facility and we pound espressos, he raves about athletes reaching within themselves in unprecedented ways that often take them beyond themselves.
Next-level shit indeed.
To get to the Red Bull performance lab and gym, we walk through a hallway. On a wall in that hallway is a massive logo: silhouetted in white against a black background, a minimalistic depiction of six stages of human evolution, from hunched-over caveman to upright human, followed by three dots, and then the next stage: a question mark.
So, the obvious question: Why?
“As humans, we can only train four things,” Dr. Michael Gervais told me by phone one day in early 2016.
Walshe put me in touch with him. Gervais—an athletic middle-aged surfer with a thick head of brown hair—is a prominent sports psychologist based in Marina del Rey. He’s worked with Red Bull athletes many times, including helping “Fearless” Felix Baumgartner leap from space for Red Bull Stratos in 2012. He currently serves as the Seattle Seahawks’ sports psychologist, and he works regularly with the likes of Kerri Walsh Jennings and many other elite athletes around the world.
“We can train our body, we can train our craft, we can train our spirit, and we can train our mind,” Gervais says. “Until recent times, we have been remiss on very clear and very practical strategies for performers to be able to train their mind.”
But how things have changed in recent times.
Until the last seventy-five years or so, you practiced a sport by, well, doing that sport. That was it. Then, over the last few decades, innovations in fitness and technology have enabled athletes to undergo ever more specific, specialized training in weight lifting, nutrition, and all manner of physical conditioning. Now athletes are constantly in the gym, in the film room, and so on, trying to snag nanoseconds’ and inches’ worth of advantages. And of course, that sort of training still matters and probably always will, but every possible physical advantage seems to have been mastered, exploited, and exhausted. I mean, swimmers shave their bodies to gain advantage.
On an individual level, there’s always more to learn, but in general, our knowledge of how to push athletes’ bodies has been maxed out. If you were to put the world’s best athletes through various physical tests in a lab, in all likelihood, most would test within a few percentage points of each other. And of course, come game time, often the guys who look like the best athletes aren’t always the best players anyway. No disrespect to the supremely conditioned Tim Tebow, but if ever hard work and competitive fire and Captain America’s body added up to winning football games, Tebow would’ve won every Super Bowl since he got drafted in 2010.
Now, with such thin margins of physical advantage at the elite levels of sport, athletes are turning to This Stuff to get better by way of their brain, the last gap left to exploit. This is the next natural stage of athletes’ evolution. They now pursue a certain mental athleticism.
To this end, This Stuff goes beyond sports into life, which, in many cases, is exactly the point. Walshe’s goal, which seems to be the goal of any good performance coach, is not only to make an athlete better in his or her sport, but to make their lives better: what helps someone’s life helps them perform, and what helps someone perform often helps their life.
And what is life, Walshe says, if not a performance of sorts?
“Performance is all in the definition,” he says. “It’s performance, going after an Olympic gold medal, same as it’s performance having the patience and compassion to be more present with your family and friends and children. It’s the same thing.”
I roughly organized all of This Stuff into four sections, according to the four ways we can train.
Mind. Body. Craft. Spirit.
Some of it overlaps from one category to another, which was inevitable, so I’ve logged my findings under each section according to how they help that particular part of a person, often by using one of the other parts. I won’t be including everything that falls under a particular category—that would get redundant and boring. Instead, my goal is an overview that explores some of the most compelling pieces of This Stuff by way of the incredible—and sometimes literally unbelievable—stories of athletes using it with remarkable results.
As I learned all of this, I felt . . . well, I felt a lot of things. First, awe. And then—I’m not proud to admit—a brief, though very real, raging jealousy. Where was this for ME ten years ago?! This whole search began, in large part, because I was a pro baseball prospect myself, and a hard worker, putting on nearly fifty pounds of muscle over four years in college—only to have those dreams derailed by anxiety, depression, and obsessive-compulsive disorder. Thankfully, I’m doing much better now, but I still have moments of enormous struggle, which is a big part of what motivated me during this search.
But then I just felt foolish. Even if I didn’t use This Stuff back then, how did I go so long thinking it was somehow worthwhile to invest so much in my body, and yet invest in nothing that helped keep my head in the game?
And then I was just confused. Why did it take so long for me, an athlete obsessed with figuring out the best ways to do anything, to learn about any of this?
That confusion deepened as I started calling athletes and teams to talk about it, only to be met with profound secrecy.
It’s a conspiracy, mate!
Truth is, I learned, it’s less conspiracy and more human nature. The tech might be new, but not the knowledge, or at least not most of it. Some is even ancient. There is a fringe subculture of people out there called “biohackers” and “neurohackers” and the like, who have been exploring some of This Stuff for some time now—but even then, it’s only in the last few years that we have seen any of it trickle into sports.
A couple days before I met Walshe, I was in Portland, Oregon, to see Herb Yoo, a scientist who worked at Nike before starting Senaptec, a cutting-edge company using futuristic technology to help athletes make their brains work faster.
One problem with all of this science and its application, Yoo says, is that nobody can agree on standardized ways to test and measure such things: “Even if you have some data and you want to share it with other people doing the same thing, you can’t always, because you could be using different techniques, different methodologies, different types of equipment. So if Babe Ruth was evaluated with one set of tools, and somebody else—Ty Cobb, or whoever—was measured in different units, different measurements, how are you supposed to compare the two? It’s just a lack of standardization. There’s no agreement on how to evaluate an athlete’s mind, brain, sensory performance, and etc.”
Another problem seems to be that This Stuff has been around for decades, but, Yoo says, “It’s been in laboratories, and people have been holding it secret, because it’s their competitive advantage.”
Even as “it” now makes its way out of the lab, that desire for competitive advantage is one of the biggest reasons for why I had such a hard time getting athletes to open up about using it. Where the Andy Walshes of the world see a boon for mankind, a way for humanity to move forward, many athletes, their teams, and researchers have found a secret weapon that they want to stay secret.
The petulant teenager in me wanted to blow that right up.
But then there’s the third reason why athletes don’t want to talk about This Stuff. Until recently, it has come in forms that have been so clinical and uncomfortable, and flat-out weird, that only the most die-hard biohackers were willing to give it a shot. Yoo’s business partner Joe Bingold says, “The concepts have been around for decades. We’re making [them] more accessible and convenient.” And there’s still a certain geeky, New Age whiff around a lot of This Stuff.
But even beyond the strangeness factor, there’s a simpler reason, which is the same reason it takes guys like me forever to get help, and why so many never get any help at all: it’s scary. For an athlete or coach to come out and say he is using some of This Stuff would almost certainly require him or her to acknowledge why—and that’s more unsettling, even more terrifying, than getting naked.
When I started researching all of this a couple years ago, I did not expect it to become as time-consuming and intensive as it did. I collected thousands of pages’ worth of articles from academic and scientific journals, I collected a small library’s worth of books (including more than one book from the For Dummies series), and I logged more than a thousand hours of interviews.
In the end, I focused on what applies directly to athletes, for a couple of reasons. For one, I want to see how the big world of sports is rapidly changing, and for the better, and how, one way or another, what helps athletes ends up helping all of us. For all the biohacking and whatnot going on out there, athletes, like most of us, don’t have time to waste on research, methods, or tools that don’t seem to have a direct and relatively immediate impact on their performance.
Even so, I had my brain hooked to a computer, and on a few separate occasions, electrocuted. I had needles shoved into my scalp. I spent thousands of dollars running around North America and testing dozens of options as I tried to answer questions that might not even have answers. Sometimes I felt like an addict consumed only by the thought of my next fix. I spent hours in sensory deprivation chambers, in which, more than once, I may have lost my mind.
What I’m saying is, consider yourself warned.
What I’ve found, however, is a dazzling look at the future, the crux of it boiling down to something that Herb Yoo said to me: “You have to know the world before you can act upon it.”
Because look, and here’s the guts of the whole matter: This Stuff shows us that for athletes—and so for anyone—“getting their mind right” or “getting their head in the game” (or whatever other cliché you prefer) isn’t a nebulous concept, separate from the physical part of a person.
This Stuff throws into sharp focus exactly how the mental aspects of a human being are every bit as real as, say, their muscles. The mind flows through the brain like air through the lungs, like blood through the heart. And This Stuff shows people the world within their heads, that they may act upon it.
Much of this left me in awe of how much power it seems athletes may actually have to make themselves better. Sometimes I was also left in an almost tearful rage at people who have been hiding the details of this new frontier.
But mostly, it left me giddy with wonder and hope for what’s coming next, and not only in sports, but also for myself—which is to say, for all of us.
Sitting in the middle of Red Bull North America’s Santa Monica office, sipping on an espresso, I exchange jabbery rambles with Andy Walshe about all of This Stuff as the time moves toward five o’clock, and people are packing up for the day—and then there is a chorus of groans and bitter laughter, followed by a lot of people wishing each other good luck.
For the first time in weeks, it’s raining in Los Angeles. Oil will make the roads slick, and traffic will be even more awful than usual. In a couple hours, a fifteen-mile drive downtown will take me an hour and a half.
For now, though, I don’t care, and Walshe doesn’t seem to care, either, both of us raving away about all This Stuff. Imagining the way This Stuff will move forward and reshape the world and the very meaning of what it is to be a human being feels like waking up in a lucid dream. That reshaping seems inevitable, whether in the forms I found over the past couple years, or something else entirely.
In other words, where This Stuff will take us is anybody’s guess. As Mike Gervais bluntly puts it, “We’re still light-years away from where this is all going.”
It’s not impossible that at some point in the not-too-distant future, we will be able to enter a training simulation sort of like in the movie The Matrix, with our brains on full display while we work, allowing us to make easy adjustments in real time. Future Us will likely look back on Present Us with pity.
And better yet, the more This Stuff shows us our brains and their errors for what they really are, the stigma surrounding mental needs will keep fading away, letting all of us breathe a little easier, and be less afraid. Last year, Brandon Marshall told the Guardian, “Where we’re at today is where the cancer and HIV community was 20–25 years ago.”
In June 2016, ESPN ran a prominent feature about a young man who quit playing college football in order to treat his clinical depression, and the reporters rightly treated him like a hero—a big step in a much-needed direction.
In September 2016, when Ohio State football coach Urban Meyer came forward with his story, it touched a nerve deep and raw throughout the world of sports; he received countless hundreds of e-mails and phone calls from coaches and athletes like him, saying that they were so glad to realize they were not alone.
And it seems like all of This is moving at light speed. After all, it’s only been about fifteen years since Dr. Michael Merzenich showed that we could change our physical brains at all, and it took him more than twenty years to convince the world of that. Rewiring the global human consciousness takes an almost supernatural effort.
Plus, when it comes to This Stuff, even the smartest people in the world are feeling their way through the dark, like all of us. And we’re learning new things seemingly every day. For instance, in late 2016, a team of neuroscientists discovered one hundred new regions of the brain. One hundred.
This is cause for excitement and concern as we hurtle toward that question mark on the wall in the Red Bull High Performance lab hall. “Everyone has an angle,” Walshe says.
“And you know, people build an angle for two reasons. One, it’s their work and the direction life has taken them. Or two, which unfortunately is a problem with our industry, there’s money to be made. If you have theeeeeeee angle that no one else has, then you can charge a lot of money, and that’s the biggest issue I see in our space. It’s the snake oil. Because it’s complex.
“Of course, we’d like to be able to say, Hey, you practice this much, you train this hard, you get this psychology right, you have the right tech, you eat well, you have great doctors around you, your world off the court is as good as your world on the court, you understand all the opportunities in terms of who you are and what you’re about creatively, spiritually, and humanly, and then you’ll win—but we’d be lying. I believe that all will help. But if you ask anybody in our business, at some point the reason one person stands on top of the podium, and the other’s alone back in the hotel room . . . we fucking have no clue.
“I think that’s the global conversation. Many people doing deep work in many areas that we’re all playing in, and I think you’ve gotta step back, and say, Hey, what’s the contribution to the greater understanding? And through that, you can leverage something extraordinary.
But holy shit, if it’s a definitive answer you’re looking for, we’re not gonna be able to give you that.
We have to be very cautious of saying that this is the answer, versus that, you know? Our position is always, ‘This is a solution that has been found effective in this particular situation.’
We’re always very mindful of not committing too hard.
We are committed to pushing the edge hard, but also explaining to people that, when we are in a complex environment like the human system, in a topic that is as far out, as extraordinarily diverse and complicated as human performance is, even if we know a lot, we know one percent of what’s knowable.”
I laugh without meaning to, stunned and humbled by what he just said. After years of searching, after my own pathological quest for answers and my obsession with all this “next-level shit” . . . I’ve just been told that the smartest people in the world know 1 percent of what’s knowable. And I feel like I might know 1 percent of that 1 percent.
Walshe and I pause, taking a breather. People gather at the exit, preparing for a dicey journey home. Los Angeles needed the rain, but it’s going to cause some headaches at first.
“Man,” I say. “Sometimes this feels like exploring deep space.”
“Right!” Walshe says, grinning big and throwing up his hands. “So, fucking jump on for the ride, everyone. Let’s go!”